23.9.13

Dissociative Identity Disorder

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What is Dissociative Identity Disorder?

Dissociative Identity Disorder also known as MPD, or Multiple Personality Disorder  is a mental disorder characterized by at least two distinct and relatively enduring identities or dissociated personality states that alternately control a person's behavior, and is accompanied by memory impairment for important information not explained by ordinary forgetfulness. These symptoms are not accounted for by substance abuse, seizures, other medical conditions, nor by imaginative play in children.

How About The Track Record?ups

DID is one of the most controversial psychiatric disorders with no clear consensus regarding its diagnosis or treatment. Research on treatment effectiveness still focuses mainly on clinical approaches and case studies. Dissociative symptoms range from common lapses in attention, becoming distracted by something else, and daydreaming, to pathological dissociative disorders. No systematic, empirically-supported definition of "dissociation" exists.

DID is diagnosed more frequently in North America than in the rest of the world, and is diagnosed three to nine times more often in females than in males. The prevalence of DID increased greatly in the latter half of the 20th century, along with the number of identities (often referred to as "alters") claimed by patients (increasing from an average of two or three to approximately 16). DID is also controversial within the legal system where it has been used as a rarely-successful form of the insanity defense.

Dissociative disorders including DID have been attributed to disruptions in memory caused by trauma and other forms of stress, but research on this hypothesis has been characterized by poor methodology. So far, scientific studies, usually focusing on memory, have been few and the results have been inconclusive. An alternative hypothesis for the etiology of DID is as a product of techniques employed by some therapists, especially those using hypnosis, and disagreement between the two positions is characterized by intense debate. DID became a popular diagnosis in the 1970s, 80s and 90s but it is unclear if the actual incidence of the disorder increased, if it was more recognized by clinicians, or if sociocultural factors caused an increase in iatrogenic presentations. The unusual number of diagnoses after 1980, clustered around a small number of clinicians and the suggestibility characteristic of those with DID, support the hypothesis that DID is therapist-induced. The unusual clustering of diagnoses has also been explained as due to a lack of awareness and training among clinicians to recognize cases of DID.

Oh, My... What is The Causes?!

Developmental Trauma

People diagnosed with DID often report that they have experienced severe physical and sexual abuse, especially during early to mid-childhood, (although the accuracy of these reports has been disputed) and others report an early loss, serious medical illness or other traumatic event. They also report more historical psychological trauma than those diagnosed with any other mental illness.

Severe sexual, physical, or psychological trauma in childhood has been proposed as an explanation for its development; awareness, memories and emotions of harmful actions or events caused by the trauma are removed from consciousness, and alternate personalities or sub-personalities form with differing memories, emotions and behavior.DID is attributed to extremes of stress or disorders of attachment. What may be expressed as post-traumatic stress disorder in adults may become DID when occurring in children, possibly due to their greater use of imagination as a form of coping.

Then, How to Suffer?

Therapy for DID is generally phase oriented. Different alters may appear based on their greater ability to deal with specific situational stresses or threats. While some patients may initially present with a large number of alters, this number may reduce during treatment — though it is considered important for the therapist to become familiar with at least the more prominent personality states as the "host" personality may not be the "true" identity of the patient. Specific alters may react negatively to therapy, fearing the therapists goal is to eliminate the alter (particularly those associated with illegal or violent activities). A more realistic and appropriate goal of treatment is to integrate adaptive responses to abuse, injury or other threats into the overall personality structure. There is debate over issues such as whether exposure therapy (reliving traumatic memories, also known as abreaction), engagement with alters and physical contact during therapy is appropriate and there are clinical opinions both for and against each option with little high-quality evidence for any position.

The Last...

You guys, don't ever think MPD or DID is one of act for attention, an act because they're upset, if you really don't understand about people feeling, don't judge it.
 

Selama Kau di Sampingku

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Desember,
identik dengan musim dingin
Musim dingin tahun ini adalah musim dingin tercantik,
walaupun ada sesuatu di dalam hatiku yang memberontak
Salju pertama turun pada malam natal,
Seluruh keluarga besarku berkumpul dan merayakan natal bersama
Tapi, aku tahu ada sesuatu yang kurang disini

Aku beranjak ke kamarku
Rasanya hatiku terlalu hampa,
Aku tidak ingin menyakiti perasaan Nenek dengan berpura-pura bahagia

Pikiranku melayang
Kenangan tahun lalu menari-nari dengan lincahnya di dalam kepalaku
Senyum pahit tersungging di wajahku

Malam natal tahun lalu adalah natal terbaik di sepanjang hidupku
Aku menghabiskan malam natal bersamanya
Menghabiskan waktu bersama sepanjang malam
Kencan pertamaku

Senja menyapa, dia datang ke apartemenku
Menjemputku, dan menjanjikan malam yang takkan pernah ku lupakan
Seperti kencan umum lainnya, kami makan malam romantis bersama
Setelah itu, kami menonton pertunjukkan balet

Gerakan yang indah dengan perpaduan musik yang menenangkan
Tangan mungilku digenggam erat olehnya
Senyum tidak pernah terlepas dari bibirku
Ingin rasanya aku membuat waktu berhenti dan tidak berputar lagi
Percayalah, aku rela melakukan apapun untuk membuat waktu berhenti

Sayang pertunjukkan telah usai,
namun ternyata kejutan belum selesai
Dia mengajakku ke area seluncur es
Pada awalnya aku meringis,
karena aku peseluncur yang sangat-sangat payah

Dengan lembut ia menuntunku untuk berdansa di area seluncur
Rasanya seperti berada di dalam mimpi
sebelum ini aku hanya memperhatikan orang-orang yang berdansa di area seluncur ini
namun sekarang, aku ada disini, bersama pria yang sangat ku cintai

Kami menari mengikuti musik yang mengalun dengan lembut
Ku rebahkan kepalaku ke pundaknya
Dia membuatku ingin terus berdansa
Padahal menari adalah kelemahan utamaku

Semua orang tersenyum bahagia
Aku menatap mata indahnya dan tersenyum kembali
Tiba-tiba serpihan salju pertama turun
tepat di telapak tanganku

Mungkin dia benar, malam natal tahun ini takkan pernah ku lupakan
Sepanjang perjalanan menuju rumah senyum tersungging indah di bibirku

"Christy,"
panggil seseorang lembut
Aku menoleh,
Nenekku
Aku menatap kalung yang bertengger di leherku
Setetes air mata terjatuh di pipiku

"Alan tidak akan suka melihatmu menangis, hapuslah air matamu,"
dengan sentuhan lembut Nenek menghapus air mataku
Aku segera beranjak dan berganti pakaian
Gaun sutra hitam ku pasangkan dengan mantel rajutan nenek
Rasanya nyaman dan hangat

Setelah mematut diri di cermin, aku turun ke bawah
Nenek memelukku dan menuntunku masuk ke mobil
Aku menghembuskan nafas menahan tangis

Sesampainya disana, aku segera berlari menghampiri salah satu makam
Aku menaruh bunga mawar merah di atasnya
tanda cinta
Aku tersenyum tipis

"Hai, Alan
Aku merindukan tahun lalu,
Kamu benar tentang dunia,
Mereka tidak pernah adil, mereka tidak pernah senang melihat kita tersenyum bahagia
Tapi, apa kamu tahu?
Malam natal tahun lalu memang malam natal terindah yang takkan pernah mungkin aku lupakan
Terkadang aku masih sering menyalahkan diriku sendiri atas kepergianmu
Tapi aku rasa Nenek benar,
Aku harus berhenti menyalahkan diri sendiri dan mulai tersenyum menghadap dunia
Tapi aku membutuhkan kamu
Aku selalu merasa lengkap dengan kehadiran kamu disisiku
Bagaimana kalau kamu berjanji untuk terus berada disampingku?"

Aku balik badan menghadap keluargaku
Mereka tersenyum melihatku tersenyum
Tiba-tiba aku merasa ada yang memelukku, hangat
Aku menoleh dan menemukan Alan di sampingku
Aku tahu Alan mendengar permohonan natalku tahun ini
Dan aku tahu aku akan baik-baik saja

Selama Alan terus berada di sampingku
 

18.9.13

Membutakan

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Gadis itu hanya duduk diam meringkuk di dekat jendela
Salah satu tangannya memegang pisau
Air mata meluncur deras tidak bisa ia tahan
Dia menatap pisau itu sebentar dan dengan mantap ia tusukkan ke dekat nadinya

Ia sudah tidak peduli lagi akan rasa sakit yang ditimbulkan
Darah menetes dari pergelangan tangannya
Senyum tipis nan miris tersungging
Kenapa tidak ia teruskan saja hingga ia tewas?

Gadis itu mencari obat-obatan
Apapun itu ia tidak peduli
Ia hanya butuh sesuatu untuk menghilangkan rasa sakitnya
Ia butuh sesuatu yang dapat membunuhnya

Sekali teguk ia minum 10 butir obat paracetamol
Dia pergi ke kamarnya lalu terdiam
Ia memandangi langit penuh bintang dan bertanya

Mungkinkah ku lihat lagi bintang esok hari?
Atau Tuhan mengabulkan permohonanku untuk pergi dari dunia ini?
Mungkin ini malam terakhir aku menangis
Karena esok mungkin takkan pernah datang

Satu goresan tidak membuatnya menangis
Dua goresan memunculkan senyum di wajah cantiknya
Sepuluh goresan, ia tidak peduli

Lalu matanya terpaku pada sepucuk surat
Ia mengambil surat itu dan mulai membaca
Ia tambahkan beberapa kata yang seharusnya ia ungkapkan

Setetes air mata terjatuh kembali dari mata cantiknya
Seulas senyuman tersungging dengan damai
Dan dengan satu goresan, ia menghembuskan nafas terakhirnya dengan tenang
Tidak ada yang tahu kejadian itu
Dan tidak ada satu pun yang peduli,
Hingga...

Sahabat karib gadis itu datang ke rumahnya
Ia membuka kamar gadis itu dengan gembira
Namun apa yang ia lihat?
Sahabat yang ia sayangi sudah tiada
Dengan darah yang masih menetes dari pergelangan tangannya

Ketika pandangannya mulai mengabur, ia melihat amplop yang dipeluk gadis itu
Ia buka dan airmatanya mulai mengalir dengan deras

Entah kenapa rasanya sakit, aku udah nggak kuat ada disini, aku minta Tuhan narik rasa sakitku dan ngejauhin aku dari dunia ini.
Kamu tau? Aku bahagia pernah ketemu dan kenal kamu, sayang terlalu singkat, namun tidak apa-apa, kita masih punya kehidupan di masa mendatang.
Ucapanku bukan gertakan semata, bukan? Rasa sakit itu membutakan, benar kan? Lantas apa yang tidak kamu percaya? Aku mengakhiri hidupku seperti ini?
Hah, seharusnya kamu memikirkan ulang kata-katamu. Bukankah kamu yang membuatku menggali lubang kuburku sendiri? Kamu yang membuat upacara pemakaman ini? Apakah ini sesuai dengan yang kamu harapkan?
Aku harap kamu bahagia bersamanya, bersama gadis yang mampu mengerti kamu apa adanya. Satu hal yang harus kamu tau, aku sayang kamu, dan akan selalu begitu.

Belum sampai di kalimat terakhir Sang Sahabat terjatuh di sebelah gadis
Ia menyesali kebodohannya dengan tidak pernah memikirkan perasaan gadis itu
Ia pergi meninggalkan gadis itu dan mencari pertolongan

Lantas apa kalimat terakhir gadis itu?

Tapi maaf, kalian terlambat menolongku, aku sudah menemukan benda ini untuk menemaniku. Jangan menangis di kuburanku, karna kamulah pembunuhku yang sebenarnya.

Loving Him

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I guess I have a story
It's about how my heart turns in two
When he left with no words
And not a nice goodbye

These days I'm feeling like a zombie
I wake up in the morning, do usual things, but inside I feel death
It's like my life turns into grey
And my smile just fly away

Then, he said we could make up
But he replaced me
My world crashing down
And I couldn't any worse

Honestly, I still love him
Stupid? I guess
But, he's like the part of me
The one I can't live without

I'm tired of this tears
I'm sick of this pain
Why can't I be death
Or sleep for awhile

People livinv with a hope
Hope could make people stronger
When your hope just left you broken
What will you do?

I'm screamin
I'm crying
But no one seems to hear
No one seems to understand

Is it as easy as that to forget me?
To never realize what you've done
And what you've said
And all this memories

This pain is real
These scars like a battle wounds
I don't know when
But I know it'll get better

                    Happy failed anniversary, dear
                              I'll always love you

13.9.13

Lirik Lagu Miley Cyrus-Wrecking Ball

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We clawed, we chained, our hearts in vain
We jumped, never asking why
We kissed, I fell under your spell
A love no one could deny

Don't you ever say I just walked away
I will always want you
I can't live a lie, running for my life
I will always want you

I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was wreck me

Yeah, you, you wreck me

I put you high up in the sky
And now, you're not coming down
It slowly turned, you let me burn
And now, we're ashes on the ground

Don't you ever say I just walked away
I will always want you
I can't live a lie, running for my life
I will always want you

I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was wreck me

I came in like a wrecking ball
Yeah, I just closed my eyes and swung
Left me crashing in a blazing fall
All you ever did was wreck me

Yeah, you, you wreck me

I never meant to start a war
I just wanted you to let me in
And instead of using force

I guess I should've let you win
I never meant to start a war
I just wanted you to let me in
I guess I should've let you win

Don't you ever say I just walked away
I will always want you

I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was wreck me

I came in like a wrecking ball
Yeah, I just closed my eyes and swung
Left me crashing in a blazing fall
All you ever did was wreck me

Yeah, you, you wreck me
Yeah, you, you wreck me

12.9.13

Lirik Lagu Taylor Swift-Red

at 04:02 0 comments
Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead end street
Faster than the wind
Passionate as sin, ended so suddenly

Loving him is like trying to change your mind
Once you’re already flying through the free fall
Like the colors in autumn
So bright just before they lose it all

Losing him was blue like I’d never known
Missing him was dark grey all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you’ve never met

But loving him was red
Loving him was red
Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you
Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song

Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there’s no right answer
Regretting him was like wishing you never found out love could be that strong
Losing him was blue like I’d never known
Missing him was dark grey all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you’ve never met

But loving him was red
Oh red burning red

Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes
Tell myself it’s time now, gotta let go
But moving on from him is impossible
When I still see it all in my head

Burning red!
Darling it was red!

Oh, losing him was blue like I’d never known
Missing him was dark grey all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you’ve never met
Cause loving him was red

Yeah yeah red

We’re burning red
And that’s why he’s spinning round in my head
Comes back to me burning red

Yeah yeah

Cause love was like driving a new Maserati down a dead end street

10.9.13

Lirik Lagu Pink-True Love ft. Lily Allen

at 23:28 0 comments
Sometimes I hate every single stupid word you say
Sometimes I wanna slap you in your whole face
There's no one quite like you
You push all my buttons down
I know life would suck without you

At the same time,
I wanna hug you
I wanna wrap my hands around your neck

You're an asshole,
But I love you

And you make me so mad I ask myself
Why I'm still here
Or where could I go

You're the only love I've ever known
But I hate you, I really hate you
So much

I think it must be...

True love, true love
It must be true love
Nothing else can break my heart like...

True love, true love
It must be true love
No one else can break my heart like you

Ooh, Ooh

Just once try to wrap your little brain around my feelings
Just once please try not to be so mean
Repeat after me now
R-O-M-A-N-C-E-E-E
Come on, I'll say it slowly (romance)
You can do it baby

At the same time,
I wanna hug you
I wanna wrap my hands around your neck

You're an asshole,
But I love you

And you make me so mad I ask myself
Why I'm still here
Or where could I go

You're the only love I've ever known
But I hate you, I really hate you
So much

I think it must be...

True love, true love
It must be true love
Nothing else can break my heart like...

True love, true love
It must be true love
No one else can break my heart like you

Ooh, Ooh

(I love you, I think it must be true love)

Why do you rub me up the wrong way?
Why do you say the things that you say?
Sometimes I wonder how we ever came to be
But without you I'm incomplete

I think it must be...

True love, true love
It must be true love
Nothing else can break my heart like...

True love, true love
It must be true love
No one else can break my heart like you
(like you)
No one else can break my heart like you
(like you)
No one else can break my heart like you
Ooh, Ooh

8.9.13

I SELF-HARMED Myself

at 00:16 1 comments
Malem itu orang tua gue udah tidur, kakak sama adek-adek gue juga udah tidur. Gue nyelinap ke dapur buat nyari obat sakit kepala. Setelah gue dapetin obat sakit kepala itu, gue ambil minum, gue pergi ke kamar, dan gue langsung minum sepuluh butir sekaligus. Gila emang, tapi gue udah nggak peduli.

Gue ngeliat ada cutter di atas meja belajar gue. Tanpa pikir panjang gue bawa benda itu dan masuk ke kamar mandi. Gue nyalain shower, gue duduk ngeliatin cutter itu. Nggak kerasa air mata gue tumpah.

Gue nggak tau harus cerita ke siapa, gue nggak mau ganggu sahabat gue karna mereka sendiri lagi punya masalah. Pacar gue? Entahlah dia kemana, udah hampir seminggu kita lost contact, padahal tinggal seminggu lagi gue ngerayain hari jadi gue.

Air mata gue tambah deres, bahkan rasanya dada gue sesek nggak ketahan, perih banget, gue benci sama hidup ini, gue benci sama diri gue sendiri, akhirnya gue mulai ngegoresin cutter itu ke pergelangan tangan gue.

Perih. Tapi gue emang bener-bener butuh rasa sakit itu, gue pengen ngeliat sedalem apa luka di hati gue. Lo bingung? Oke gue jelasin, gue itu orang yang suka nyiksa diri gue kalau gue lagi sedih atau depresi, dan biasanya dengan bikin luka baru gue bisa bikin rasa sakit di hati gue berenti. Walaupun cuma buat sementara.

Satu goresan, kurang. Dua goresan, masih kerasa sakitnya. Tiga goresan, gue butuh lebih dari itu. Empat goresan, please jangan berenti. Lima goresan, cutter itu lepas dari tangan gue. Tiba-tiba terlintas muka orang-orang yang gue sayangin. Gue berdiri dan balik ke kamar gue.

Di kamar gue diem ngeliat langit. Gue berharap besok semuanya berubah, gue berharap besok lebih baik, gue senyum ngeliat bintang di langit.

Gue ngecheck hand-phone gue. Belom ada bbm masuk, gue pun ngucapin selamat pagi buat pacar gue duluan. Tapi semuanya berubah. Gue ngerasa dipukul pake godam.

Gue putus. Rasanya ancur banget. Gue sama dia putus. Padahal 2 hari lagi gue setaun sama dia. Gue nangis kejer pas baca, gue nggak kuat rasanya perih banget banget banget.

Pas gue lagi nangis, Adek gue dateng ke kamar, gue ngeliat diaa semba, pasti ada yang nggak beres, gue pun langsung lari, turun ke bawah, dan bener aja, kedua adek gue, Kakak, sama orang tua gue duduk di ruang keluarga. Gue ngambil posisi di sebelah kakak gue.

Ayah mulai pembicaraan, dan itu hal terakhir yang pengen gue denger. Gue langsung lari ke kamar gue, ngunci diri dan nangis sesenggukan, mata gue ngeliat cutter yang semalem gue pake, gue masuk ke kamar mandi, gue nyalain keran, gue teriak sekenceng-kencengnya dan mulai ngegores tangan gue pake cutter.

Darah mulai netes dari pergelangan tangan gue. Tapi rasa sakitnya nggak kerasa, gue lebih dari sekedar ancur, baru diputusin, ortu gue cerai, dan gue terpaksa tinggal sama Ayah disini. Adek gue harus ikut Ibu, kakak gue entah kenapa dengan kejamnya milih sama Ibu. Sedangkan gue? Gue harus nemenin Ayah.

Pintu kamar gue diketok, gue nggak peduli, gue diem disini dan ngebiarin darah gue netes. Gue benci banget sama semuanya.

Perut gue perih, tapi gue nggak ngomong apa-apa, bahkan gue yakin maag gue udah parah banget. Tapi gue nggak mau makan, gue mau mati aja, gue bahkan belom tidur selama 6 hari, gue juga nggak makan, gue berasa zombie.

Di sekolah gue biasa aja, gue senyum, gue ketawa, gue becanda, bahkan nggak ada satupun yang tau apa yang gue alamin. Tapi begitu di rumah, gue nangis kejer, ngunci diri, dan nyiksa diri gue sendiri. Bodoh? Emang. Tapi sekali lagi gue tekenin gue nggak peduli!

Besoknya gue dapet kabar, mantan gue jadian sama sahabat gue. Gue tambah ancur disitu, feeling gue emang nggak pernah salah, gue emang udah curiga sama mereka berdua. Gue pun tambah masuk ke lubang hitam gue. Bahkan gue nggak tau gue bisa bangkit lagi atau enggak.

Pagi itu Ayah gue nyuruh siap-siap, gue mau dikenalin sama temennya, gue pikir itu calon pengganti Ibu gue, jadi gue siap-siapnya asal. Sesampainya disana, gue bingung kenapa malah ke tempat ini, dan ternyata....

7.9.13

Lirik Lagu MKTO-Thank You

at 22:46 0 comments
 Yo, this one right here is for all the drop-out-of-schoolers.
The future cougars. The Mary Jane abusers.
The ones that chose to be losers, for all the Misfit Kids and total outcasts MKTO.
This one's for you role models.

We are the ones, the ones you left behind.
Don't tell us how, tell us how to live our lives.
Ten million strong we're breaking all the rules.
Thank you for nothing, cause there's nothing left to lose.

Thank you for feeding us years of lies.
Thank you for the wars you left us to fight.
Thank you for the world you ruined overnight.
But we'll be fine, yeah we'll be fine.

Thank you for the world you broke,
Like yolk and it ain't no joke.
So cold and there ain't no coat,
Just me, my friends, my folks
And we gonna do what we like.
So raise that bird up high
And when they ask you why.
Just stand there laugh and smile.

We are the ones, the ones you left behind.
Don't tell us how, tell us how to live our lives.
Ten million strong we're breaking all the rules.
Thank you for nothing, cause there's nothing left to lose.

Na na na na
Na na na na na na
Na na na na
Na na na na na na
(Thank you)

Thank you for the times you said, "Don't make a sound."
Thanks for the ropes you used to hold us down.
Cause when I break through I'ma use them to reach the clouds.
We ain't comin' down (Come on). We ain't comin' down (Hey).

Look, ma, I finally made it,
This world is too damn jaded.
My life is just like Vegas,
Go big, go home get faded.
Been a prob since '92.
Can't shut me down curfew
And them girls I'll take a few.
Do what I wanna do.

We are the ones, the ones you left behind.
Don't tell us how, don't tell us how to live our lives.
Ten million strong we're breaking all the rules.
Thank you for nothing, cause there's nothing left to lose.

Na na na na (hey)
Na na na na na na
Na na na na
Na na na na na na
(Thank you)

Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
From head to toe from the soul you ripped apart.
I say,
I say, "Thank you."
Yeah, yeah

We are the ones, the ones you left behind.
Don't tell us how, tell us how to live our lives.
Ten million strong we're breaking all the rules.
Thank you for nothing, cause there's nothing left to lose.

We are the ones, the ones you left behind.
Don't tell us how, tell us how to live our lives.
Ten million strong we're breaking all the rules.
Thank you for nothing, cause there's nothing left to lose.

(Thank you)

Na na na na (hey)
Na na na na na na
Na na na na
Na na na na na na
(Thank you)

Yo if you don't like what they tell you to do, don't do it.
If you don't want to be who they want you to be, screw it.
It's your world, it's your life and they ruined it.
Role models, tune in, turn up, drop out 

4.9.13

Lirik Lagu Lady Gaga-Applause

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I stand here waiting for you to bang the gong
To crash the critic saying, "is it right or is it wrong?"
If only fame had an IV, baby could I bear
Being away from you, I found the vein, put it in here

I live for the applause, applause, applause
I live for the applause-plause, live for the applause-plause
Live for the way that cheer and scream for me
The applause, applause, applause

Give me that thing that I love(Turn the lights on)
Put your hands up, make 'em touch(Make it real loud)
Give me that thing that I love(Turn the lights on)
Put your hands up, make 'em touch(Make it real loud)

A-P-P-L-A-U-S-E
Make it real loud
Put your hands up, make 'em touch, touch

A-P-P-L-A-U-S-E
Make it real loud
Put your hands up, make 'em touch, touch

I've overheard your theory
"Nostalgia's for geeks"
I guess sir, if you say so
Some of us just like to read

One second I'm a kunst
Then suddenly the kunst is me
Pop culture was in art
Now, art's in pop culture in me

I live for the applause, applause, applause
I live for the applause-plause, live for the applause-plause
Live for the way that cheer and scream for me
The applause, applause, applause

Give me that thing that I love(Turn the lights on)
Put your hands up, make 'em touch
(Make it real loud)Give me that thing that I love(Turn the lights on)
Put your hands up, make 'em touch(Make it real loud)

A-P-P-L-A-U-S-E
Make it real loud
Put your hands up, make 'em touch, touch

A-P-P-L-A-U-S-E
Make it real loud
Put your hands up, make 'em touch, touch
Touch, touchTouch, touch, now

I live for the applause, applause, applause
I live for the applause-plause, live for the applause-plause
Live for the way that cheer and scream for me
The applause, applause, applause

Give me that thing that I love(Turn the lights on)
Put your hands up, make 'em touch(Make it real loud)
Give me that thing that I love(Turn the lights on)
Put your hands up, make 'em touch(Make it real loud)

A-P-P-L-A-U-S-E
Make it real loud
Put your hands up, make 'em touch, touch

A-P-P-L-A-U-S-E
Make it real loud
Put your hands up, make 'em touch, touch

A-R-T-P-O-P

Lirik Lagu Timeflies-I Choose You

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Late nights, New York, trouble on my mind;
Crossed town to the west end, I’m wasting my time.
Down south back roads, dust clouds yeahh.

Backseat of that Chevrolet, but it wasn’t there.
Missed the flight out of Heathrow, got stuck up in a one room flat.
She’s so fit tryna hold me down, while I was just trying to get back.

Malibu, beach flow, crushing on these shores.
A smile shining like gold, but that smile wasn’t yours.
And I know, I know, I know, I know, you see..

Everybody needs somebody to love.
Everybody needs somebody to love.
And I choose you.
Yeah ahhyeah
I choose you.

I told ya, everybody needs somebody to love.
Everybody needs somebody to love.
And I choose you.
(You know I choose you, wouldn’t ever want to loose you)
And I choose you.

And I choose you-u-u-u-u-u-u.
And I choose you-u-u-u-u-u-u.

Like this:
High heels, dirty talk, hand cuffs and chains.
Nails down my back, but I never knew her name.

Bright eyes, sun dress, daddy’s little girl.
She changed my life, but you changed my world.
And I know, I know, I know, I know, you see…

Everybody needs somebody to love.
Everybody needs somebody to love.
And I choose you.

You know I choose you
I choose you.
You know I choose you

Everybody needs somebody to love.
Everybody needs somebody to love.

And I choose you.
And I choose you.
And I choose you-u-u-u-u-u-u.
And I choose you-u-u-u-u-u-u.


You’re every place that I’ve been baby, you’re every face that I’ve seen;
You’re everywhere and I’m going crazy, your body rockin my dreams;
You’re always up in my mind, you’re everywhere that I go;
You’re everything in this time, so girl I’m lettin you know;

That I’m rolling up in a fly whip, come ride this and just close your eyes;
Showin up with my sidekick, my, superhero with a dope disguise;
No wonder woman, all our dreams are coming true;
So don’t be scared of losing me, because I’m always choosing you.

Everybody needs somebody to love.
Everybody needs somebody to love.
And I choose you.
(I choose you)
I choose you.
(You know I choose you, I could never loose you)
And I choose you-u-u-u-u-u-u.
And I choose you-u-u-u-u-u-u.

Everybody needs somebody to love.
And I choose you-u-u-u-u-u-u.
I need somebody to lo-o-o-ove.
I need somebody to lo-o-o-ove.
And if you need somebody to love, then I choose you.

Quotes From Song Lyrics

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 “Get up, stand up, Stand up for your rights. Get up, stand up, Don't give up the fight.”
Bob Marley
“I've been burdened with blame trapped in the past for too long, I'm moving on”
Rascal Flatts
“When pain brings you down, don't be silly, don't close your eyes and cry, you just might be in the best position to see the sun shine.”
Alanis Morissette
“I gave her my heart but she wanted my soul...”
Bob Dylan
“You think you're lost but you're not lost on your own. You're not alone. I will stand by you, I will help you through when you’ve done all you can do.
If you can’t cope, I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight, I will hold you tight and I wont let go”
Rascal Flatts
“I truly loved you, but now I'm walking away”
Jonny Lang
“Lose your dream, you lose your mind.”
The Rolling Stones
“Our love is like a song
but you won't sing along.”
Demi Lovato
“Time made me stronger, you're no longer on my mind”
Boyz II Men
“Don't it always seem to go, that you don't know what you've got till it's gone.”
Joni Mitchell
“These are the seasons of emotion,
and like the winds, they rise and fall.”
Led Zeppelin
"Yeah, you don't know what you've till it's gone"
-The Jonas Brothers
“And baby, the way you move me it's crazy”
Ray Lamontagne
 

Quotes About Heartbreak

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“Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option.”
Mark Twain
“The heart was made to be broken.”
Oscar Wilde
“Once you had put the pieces back together, even though you may look intact, you were never quite the same as you'd been before the fall.”
Jodi Picoult
“Was it hard?" I ask.
Letting go?"
Not as hard as holding on to something that wasn't real.”
Lisa Schroeder
“The emotion that can break your heart is sometimes the very one that heals it...”
Nicholas Sparks, At First Sight    
“He does something to me, that boy. Every time. It’s his only detriment. He steps on my heart. He makes me cry.”
Markus Zusak, The Book Thief    
“Hearts are breakable," Isabelle said. "And I think even when you heal, you're never what you were before".”
Cassandra Clare, City of Fallen Angels
“I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay”
Sara Evans
“Hearts can break. Yes, hearts can break. Sometimes I think it would be better if we died when they did, but we don't.”
Stephen King, Hearts in Atlantis
“Did I really want to stay on this road longer, knowing it was only going to end in devastation?”
Becca Fitzpatrick, Crescendo
“Don't cry when the sun is gone, because the tears won't let you see the stars.”
Violeta Parra
“Love, it never dies. It never goes away, it never fades, so long as you hang on to it. Love can make you immortal”
Gayle Forman, If I Stay
“I think you are wrong to want a heart. It makes most people unhappy. If you only knew it, you are in luck not to have a heart.”
L. Frank Baum, The Wonderful Wizard of Oz    
“The saddest thing about love, Joe, is that not only the love cannot last forever, but even the heartbreak is soon forgotten.”
William Faulkner
 

2.9.13

Lelah

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Lelah kususuri semua jalanan yang menanjak dan tajam
Letih kurasakan dalam perjalanan mengejar cintaku hari ini
Terpuruk dan terpuruk, itu yang terjadi
Terlupa dan terhempas, menjadi sahabat baruku

Lalu, apa arti cinta selalu menyakitkan untukku?
Selalu menorehkan luka panjang yang tak dapat disembuhkan?
Bisakah hatiku tersenyum kembali?
Di balik kelamnya luka ini...

Cinta. Kata yang menurut sebagian orang menyenangkan
Menyedihkan, dan selalu meninggalkan luka dalam
Ya sudahlah, apa lagi yang mau dikata?
Mungkin memang ini jalan takdirku

Mungkin saat ini Dewi Cinta sedang berbaik hati padaku
Dia tunjukkan seseorang yang akan menyambut hatiku
Membantuku membalut luka hati
Dan menunjukkan arti cinta yang sesungguhnya

Yah, mungkin aku bisa bernafas lega saat ini
Dia menata kembali hatiku yang sudah retak berkeping-keping
Membisikkan kata cinta yang sudah lama tak kudengar
Apakah ini pertanda baik untuk cintaku?

Entahlah...
Rasanya aku tidak ingin percaya lagi kepada cinta
Kepada satu hal yang sudah benar-benar menyakitiku
Kepada satu hal yang sering membohongiku

Kini aku duduk terdiam
Di bawah terang bulan
Di dalam gelapnya malam
Ku tekuk kakiku dan ku peluk erat

Kupandangi beribu bintang yang bersinar
Ku bisikkan satu kalimat tak terjamah
Kulihat bulan tersenyum sendu kepadaku
Aku membalasnya dengan senyuman pahit

Aku berkata
Namun tak terdengar
Suaraku lirih bagaikan angin
Tubuhku mungil bagaikan debu tak terlihat

Seperti itukah aku di hatimu?
Kau cari saat kau butuhkan aku cinta?
Kau hampiri saat kau menginkannya kasih?
Apa semua cintaku tak kunjung cukup di hatimu?

Apa yang sebenarnya kau cari dari diriku?
Ketulusanku sudah aku berikan
Kasih sayangku telah aku titipkan
Cinta dan rindu selalu aku kirimkan

Aku tidak pernah meminta satu hal darimu
Aku hanya dapat berharap, segala yang terbaik untukmu
Jika saat ini kau tidak dapat melihat cintaku
Aku harap suatu saat nanti, kau kan melihatnya

Bintangku...
Aku titip cinta kasihku untuk pujaanku
Bulanku...
Aku titip senyuman rinduku untuk kekasih hatiku

Oh langit malam
Mungkinkah nyanyian lirihku terdengar olehnya?
Jika memang ini yang terindah untuknya
Aku rela tersakiti olehnya...
 

Pupus

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Ini pertama kalinya bagi gue...
Terjebak di atara puing-puing tembok dilema
Terhimpit bebatuan, dari hancurnya bangunan cinta
Nggak semudah jalan lurus nan menanjak
Nggak segampang ngebalikin telapak tangan
Semua bagaikan jalanan berkerikil yang berkelok-kelok
Seperti menjelajahi gurun pasir
Yang tidak kita ketahui arah selesainya
Kini aku terjebak
Di dalam pusaran badai cinta
Di dalamnya lautan sakit hati karna cinta
Bayangan tentangmu hadir
Mimpi-mimpi tentang cinta kita
Yang kita duga takkan pernah berakhir
Tapi, ketika aku membuka mata
Engkau telah pergi
Membawa cintaku pergi
Kini aku terbangun
Di tengah malam yang sendu
Tanpa bulan menemani
Tiada bintang yang menyinari
Aku duduk menekuk lututku
Merebahkan badanku di tembok ini
Menatap langit sembari berdo'a
Berharap kau memikirkanku
Berharap kau mau melupakanku
Kini kau hanya harapku
Hanya cerita yang menyedihkan
Senar gitar ku petik
Alunan nada menyedihkan terputar
Rentetan kata yang mengutarakan hatiku terucap
Aku termenung
Kata-kata tidak pernah menggambarkan suasana hatiku
Semua terlalu sukar untuk ku baca
Terlalu berantakan untuk ku rapihkan
Kini aku tersadar
Getar hatiku begitu menyedihkan
Aku hanya terdiam
Apa ini takdir yang indah bagiku?
Ya, takdir indah yang begitu menyakitkan

Lirik Lagu Rascal Flatts-What Hurts The Most

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I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away

And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ it
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone

Still harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away

And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away

And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

Lirik Lagu Avril Lavigne-When You're Gone

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I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you

And the clothes you left they lie on my floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

And when you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you                    
               

Lirik Lagu Avril Lavigne-I'm With You

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I’m standing on the bridge
I’m waiting in the dark
I thought that you’d be here by now

There’s nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I’m listening, but there’s no sound

Isn’t anyone trying to find me?
Won’t somebody come take me home

It’s a damn cold night
Trying figure out this life
Won’t you, take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are but I,
I’m with you
I’m with you
I’m looking for a place
I’m searching for a face
Is anybody here I know

Cos nothing’s going right and
Everything's a mess
And no-one like’s to be alone

Isn’t anyone trying to find me?
Won’t somebody take me home

It’s a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won’t you, take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are but I,
I’m with you
I’m with you

Oh, why is everything so confusing
Maybe I’m just out of my mind

Yeah yeah yeah
Yeah yeah
Yeah yeah
Yeah yeah
Yeah

It’s a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won’t you, take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are but I,
I’m with you
I’m with you

Take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are but I,
I’m with you
I’m with you

Take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are but I,
I’m with you
I’m with you
I’m with you.

Lirik Lagu Anna Kendrick-Cups(Pitch Perfect's When I'm Gone)

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I got my ticket for the long way round
Two bottles of whiskey for the way
And I sure would like some sweet company
And I'm leaving tomorrow
What do you say?
 
When I'm gone
When I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me by my hair
You're gonna miss me everywhere
Oh, you're gonna miss me when I'm gone
 
When I'm gone
When I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me by my walk
You're gonna miss me by my talk
Oh, you're gonna miss me when I'm gone
 
I got my ticket for the long way round
The one with the prettiest of views
It's got mountains, it's got rivers
Its got sights to give you shivers
But it sure would be prettier with you
 
When I'm gone
When I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me by my walk
You're gonna miss me by my talk
Oh, you're gonna miss me when I'm gone
 
When I'm gone
When I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me by my hair
You're gonna miss me everywhere
Oh, you're sure gonna miss me when I'm gone
 
When I'm gone
When I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me by my walk
You're gonna miss me by my talk
Oh, you're gonna miss me when I'm gone

1.9.13

Quotes About Love

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“You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.”
Dr. Seuss

“A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.”
Elbert Hubbard

“There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment.”
Sarah Dessen, The Truth About Forever    

“I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.”
Pablo Neruda, 100 Love Sonnets    

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.”
Neil Gaiman, The Sandman, Vol. 9: The Kindly Ones
 
“Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none.”
William Shakespeare, All's Well That Ends Well    
 
“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.”
Lao Tzu
 
“Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.”
Robert A. Heinlein, Stranger in a Strange Land
 
“Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind,
And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind.”
William Shakespeare, A Midsummer Night's Dream
 
“Love is like the wind, you can't see it but you can feel it.”
Nicholas Sparks, A Walk to Remember    
 
“The real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing your forehead or smiling into your eyes or just staring into space.”
Marilyn Monroe
 
“So it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be really hard; we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me... everyday.”
Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook
 
“Love is needing someone. Love is putting up with someone's bad qualities because they somehow complete you.”
Sarah Dessen, This Lullaby    
 
“The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person.”
Chuck Palahniuk, Invisible Monsters    

Quotes About Life

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“Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.”
Dr. Seuss

“You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough.”
Mae West

“To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.”
Oscar Wilde

“It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not.”
André Gide, Autumn Leaves

“There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.”
Albert Einstein

“I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be.”
Douglas Adams, The Long Dark Tea-Time of the Soul

“Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple.”
Dr. Seuss

“Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving.”
Albert Einstein

“Sometimes people are beautiful.
Not in looks.
Not in what they say.
Just in what they are.”
Markus Zusak, I Am the Messenger

“Reality continues to ruin my life.”
Bill Watterson, The Complete Calvin and Hobbes    

“Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day. You shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.”
Ralph Waldo Emerson

“I'm the one that's got to die when it's time for me to die, so let me live my life the way I want to.”
Jimi Hendrix, Jimi Hendrix - Axis: Bold as Love    

“Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.”
George Bernard Shaw

“Just when you think it can't get any worse, it can. And just when you think it can't get any better, it can.”
Nicholas Sparks, At First Sight    

 

Lirik Lagu Mr. Big- Wild World

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Now that I've lost everything to you
You say you want to start something new
And it's breaking my heart you're leaving
Baby I'm grieving
But if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
But then a lot of things turn bad out there

Oh baby baby it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just just upon a smile
Oh baby baby it's a wild world
I'll always remember you like a child girl

You know I've seen a lot of what the world can do
And it's breaking my heart in two
'Cause I never want to see you sad girl
Don't be a bad girl

But if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware

Oh baby baby it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just just upon a smile
Oh baby baby it's a wild world
I'll always remember you like a child girl

Baby I love you,
But if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware

Oh baby baby it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just just upon a smile
Oh baby baby it's a wild world
I'll always remember you like a child girl
 

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